I am kind of at a loss for words right now (might actually make this a short blog). Can't really explain everything that is going on at the moment, but I am having to take my own advice and really "walk by faith" and trust God. I am learning that walking by faith means taking steps without knowing what the outcome is. I remember about a year ago for school I was teaching the kids about trusting me. I put a blindfold on them and walked them around the house and then we talked about how that felt for them. It was hard for a couple of them because they became very vulnerable and had to trust me for their every step. I am now like my children with a blindfold on wondering where God is going to take me, and scared that I might bump into something and it will be painful. Scared that when I take the blindfold off I won't be where I thought He would take me. Scared of how others view me. Scared he won't come through for me. It is about me not knowing the outcome but trusting that God has a plan. Maybe not the plan I had in my head, or the way I think it will turn out. It is all about walking one step at a time in faith. Trusting that one step will lead to the next, which will lead to the next. This is where I really have to live what I believe.
God help me to walk by faith in all situations, help me to trust that you know what is best for me and help me to stay focused on you despite my circumstances and my emotions (which you know can be crazy at times). Continue to change my heart so that in all circumstances I can say, "not my will but yours be done God" Thank you for your many blessings and the hope and joy You bring to my life. Forgive me of my unbelief and continue to increase my faith. Help me to walk by faith one step at a time.