Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Hard to believe we have almost been here 8 months. It some ways it feels like the time has flown by and in other ways it feels like we have lived here forever. I sit typing this while in Jinja getting some rest and relaxation. The time here has been really great for all of us. For me personally I have tried to reflect over the months and look at the themes God has been teaching me.
God has been teaching me to trust in him. There is a war raging inside of me at times. Many times I miss the comforts I had in the States. Food and the ability to control my situations especially. And the one I am missing the most is good medical care and my health. I am not saying these things are bad but what bothers me is that Christ isn't enough for me at times. I am just being transparent. I haven't seen it so clearly until a lot of it was striped away. We have a joke among our team that Kotido brings out the worst in you. I know this is a recurrent theme in my blogs, with the Habbakuk 3:17 prayer. Sometimes I think it is hard for us "Americans" because we know what we are missing. If you never experience ice cream, than when you don't have it, you don't miss it. If you have never had a flushing toilet than you don't miss having a flushing toilet. These comforts for me seem to keep me from experiencing more of what God wants for me. Merely distractions that I have to weed through. It seems for me the movement of learning is slow but then I know God is teaching me through the process and I won't transform over night. However I never want to be content with where I am in my relationship with Christ or think I have "arrived." This is where danger lurks.
Here are some scriptures I would like to share with you.
So therefore any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple.
(The context of this scripture is Jesus talking about counting the cost of discipleship)
2 Cor. 4:7
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair, persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us but life in you.
He must increase, but I must decrease.
"Turn you eyes upon Jesus look full in his wonderful face and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace."
May God Be Enough For Me,
BTW...My husband will be posting a blog soon on our website....I know its been a LONG time!