Friday, September 10, 2010

My Struggles

Sorry I haven't blogged in quite awhile. With starting school, and preparing to leave on October 6, I have not made it a priority to blog.

Those of you that know me really well know that I struggle with the sin of people pleasing. I have a tendency to worry and care a lot about what people think of me (learning that this stems from pride). For the most part I am obedient to God rather to man, but it can be painful at times. There are times when I would like to be able to please both man and God and get the best of both worlds. God is not in that business. I either follow Him or follow man. A scripture that I have held on to tightly in dealing with this comes from Galations 1:10, "For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ.

Apparently I need a lot more work in this area than I thought because there have been a lot of opportunities in the past year where I have had to remember that it is God I answer to and not man. The biggest event that has altered and shaken my people pleasing tendencies is with the decision to move to Uganda as missionaries. With this decision has come a lot of adversatiy which has forced me to dig deeper into my faith and into the reason I follow God in the first place and what following Him really is.
All in all God is still working this in my life and some times are more painful than others. It can be really difficult being in this world but not being of this world. However I have learned more and more about denying myself and doing what the Bible says rather than doing just what I feel comfortable with or what fits into my or other's scope of beliving in God and having Faith in Him.

I am thankful that God continues to be patient but yet He challenges me and ask me to step into the unknown and follow Him for His name sake. I pray that He alone gets the glory.

Thanks for Listening,



  1. He teaches us everyday, doesn't He? Praying for you all...

  2. PRAYING with you and for you in this time of preparation. I know it isn't easy....PRAYING!

  3. Thanks for sharing. How did you come to this decision? I would love to hear more about this and how you have delat with negative reactions. Do you plan to have the new baby in the states or in Uganda? Goncrats BTW on it being a girl!